I feel like killing myself?

WOW, where do you start, my goodness girl, I guess I would start by going to a church and talk to a Minister, most of them are trained now to help people sort out their problems, or know of someone that could help you. For being through all this at 16, I have never dealt with any of this and I am 54 years old. Keep looking until you find someone that can and will help you!!! good luck, hang in there